January 2012
30 posts
I have no plan.
If I can fool myself; aint a thing to fool any of...
No one believes me when I say I do nothing.
If i’m not out.. out being school, work, or a club at school.. i’ll do.nothing. I can smile and laugh and make you do the same but how the hell does that make me happy? I’ve shown you what you want to see, and shown myself what i’d like to be. I really know I’m not shit but a piece of it. But I can persuade myself to think I’m something more.
I hide everything.
I put up a front and even when I “let you in” I never let you all the way in, because I always know you’ll end up leaving me. You all will. Every good thing comes to an end; so why bother creating something good just for it to diminish into nothing? A nothing that I had never hoped it would be, never dreamed it would be. Letting down my guard has NEVER happened. No matter how...
I've never believed in myself because you've never...
I can’t remember the last time I cried about my father. This weekend was my breaking point.
December 2011
17 posts
: I managed to get a picture of my dad in the NY... →
deesquared:
I managed to get a picture of my dad in the NY Times Magazine that released earlier on Christmas as a little present for my mom and family. I normally don’t talk about anything too personal on my blog, but I feel like I’ve kept a lot of people in the dark, especially those closest…
i'm not as secular as I have been, but when i'm...
When I go to church, I feel like everything I’ve done is okay. I feel good about myself and I know that God is there for me if and when I want to follow him, and be guided by him. (Some people probably read the title, saw the word “church” and stopped reading. But for those of you who have continued, thank you.) I feel like the devil’s the one trying to pull me away from...
November 2011
22 posts
